All I Ever Have To Be

On what should have been an hour and a half drive on a weekday afternoon, there was an accident on I-5 that made drive time turn into a 5 hour forced bonding time between myself and a work peer.  To pass the time while sitting there, we talked and after a couple of hours, started trying to entertain one another by playing various games we recalled from childhood family road trips.  My co-worker decided to play a game of “What’s your favorite?”, which led to her knowing much more about me than I would normally divulge to a colleague.  What’s your favorite color?  What’s your favorite movie?  What’s your favorite food?  What’s your favorite song?  I can’t answer that one!  I mean, there are so many, and it depends on what type of music, what mood I’m in, what memory its associated with, how do you pick one child over the other?!  The question actually stressed me out!

So, I say this with great hesitation, but if I had to pick a favorite song (which I’m still not going to commit to), the song “All I Ever Have To Be”, sung by Amy Grant and written by Gary Chapman would have to be on my short list.  This song was released in 1980, when I was still a young girl, however, I can clearly remember listening to the lyrics closely and the beautiful simple melody.  Even at the age of 8, this song resonated with me deeply.  Hard to explain it and I certainly did not realize the degree to which I would need to continue to be reminded of the words of this simple beauty throughout my life.

“All I Ever Have To Be”

When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
Have all been nicely said
But I’m still hurting, wondering if I’ll ever be the one
I think I am – I think I amThen you gently re-remind me
That You’ve made me from the first
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst
And I realize the good in me is only there because of who You are
Who You are…And all I ever have to be is what You’ve made me
Any more or less would be a step out of Your plan
As you daily recreate me help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be is what You’ve made me


So dear one, if like me, you struggle with meeting the expectations of others or even more difficult, your own,  If you are tired of striving, If you feel more loved for what you do than who you are, then let me remind you as I remind myself.

  1. God made you, uniquely you on purpose, don’t try to be someone else.
  2. Give yourself some grace, we’re all unfinished.
  3. Never doubt for a minute, that even with your imperfections you are mind-blowingly loved.
  4. We don’t have to pull it off alone.  All the good is because of Him and He wants to handle our tough stuff too.
  5. Stop striving.  A good dose of rest in His love and grace, allows us to be who we were made to be.

Ahhhh, I feel better, how about you?

Be encouraged my friend!





Amazing Grace

“Amazing Grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me, I once was lost but now I’m found was blind but now I see…”.  These well-known and loved hymn lyrics quickly come to mind when I think of the word G-R-A-C-E.  I also think of my great Aunt whose name is Grace, I always remember as a child thinking what a pretty name that was.  I think I was onto something there, Grace is a beautiful thing…God’s grace for me, in demonstrating his love & forgiveness to me when I didn’t & don’t deserve it.  Yet He gives it freely, He has been soooo very gracious to me.

I have noticed that unless you are sitting in church on a Sunday, you may not hear this word “grace” to often, unless maybe you say grace before a meal.  I use this word at work sometimes, when I encourage staff to extend grace to one another & many times I am given quite the odd look.  You see, Grace can be a foreign concept to many people.  Truth be told, sometimes my actions demonstrate that it’s somewhat foreign to me.  Oh, I love to sing about God’s amazing grace & I think it’s a beautiful word, but do I love and appreciate the grace I’ve been given so much that I am a grace giver to others?

When someone makes an honest mistake, do I express my annoyance or give grace?

When someone does me wrong, do I make them pay or do I forgive, extending grace?

When I think someone might have a wrong motive, do I doubt them or give them the benefit of the doubt & give grace?

I think that as I grow to more fully understand and appreciate the Grace that has so lavishly been given to me that I have a greater need to be a grace giver to those around me.  As I become more intimately aware of my own shortcomings and imperfections, I become more grateful for the grace both God and those around me extend to me on an almost daily basis & in my gratitude for that grace, how can I deny it to others?

“We should give as we would receive, cheerfully, quickly, and without hesitation; for there is no grace in a benefit that sticks to the fingers.”Lucius Annaeus Seneca

I’m Not Good Enough

I’m not good enough, probably not a popular statement, in a day and age, where it is widely touted that “the power is within you”, “all you have to do is believe”.  It’s also probably not how I would recommend starting off a self-esteem conversation with a friend that needs an encouraging word.  But, what I’m talking about isn’t a put down or a berating of yourself, it’s a reality check.

Confession time again…I have spent much of my life attempting to be good enough.  I have worked long and hard and given it my best.  I have attempted to prove my worthiness to those that love me and sometimes even to those that don’t appear to care for me all too much.  Oh, the energy I have expended trying to create an impressive record for myself.

I don’t know if you’ve realized this in your own life, but I have on several occasions run myself into the ground in my efforts to be good enough.  It’s tiring, it’s a full-time job.  Trying to be good enough makes it impossible to be present and real in your relationships.  Trying to be good enough takes your eyes off of what matters and if I’m painfully honest with myself is because I’m making things about me, again!

I have experienced the heartache that comes when you try your darndest and you don’t measure up, you get passed over, rejected, kicked off, kicked out, ignored and you get up, dust yourself off and say, “I’ll just try harder”.  Don’t get me wrong, excellence is essential, hard work, dedication and using the gifts and blessings you’ve been given is important, but all of the most amazing tricks in the world, doesn’t make a person good enough.

“I’m not good enough”, it’s a statement of fact not of condemnation.  It’s a reality check not a put down.  You see, I am good enough, simply because God says I am, because before I ever existed He saw me, loved me, chose me and made a way for me.  He makes me good enough!

And I’m telling you people the fact that I’m not good enough on my own is a very freeing thing to admit, kinda takes the pressure off!  This truth allows me to take a deep breath, relax and live this life God has gifted me with.  G-R-A-C-E, such a beautiful word and I think it can only be experienced when you realize your just not good enough.  I want to learn to walk restfully in this grace and I think it starts with admitting I can’t pull this thing off even when I try with all my might, realize He is more than enough and that is good enough with me!!