Friends, it’s been a theme of my life. I wonder if you’ve found it in yours as well? I avoid things.
Not all things. I embrace laughter and watching the sunset never gets old to me. Coffee? Yes, please, A day at the spa, sign me up! Time with a good friend, the best!
I avoid hard things. Things that cause discomfort, pain, heartache, unpleasant feelings of all kinds, forms and variations. I will walk away, I might even run. I will shut down and crawl inside myself so tightly that the very jaws of life don’t stand a chance. I work very hard to avoid things. I am adamant about avoiding things. I will fight tooth and nail to avoid things. I will stand my ground and stiffen my neck to avoid things. I take avoiding hard things very seriously!
How are you at handling criticism? I wish I was great, but I’m not. I tend to take it personal. Doing things well matters to me so when I get the feeling I’m not meeting expectations, it can be a tough day for this girl.
Recently, at work I decided to ask for some feedback from those that I lead. The questions centered around my leadership ability, problem solving skills, communication, interpersonal skills, etc…I made sure this survey was set up anonymously so staff would feel free to share honest feedback with me. Continue reading “Feedback”→
I’m sure you’re all familiar with the old adage, “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.” I get the heart of this message and agree with it, truly this world does not need another voice joining the chorus of negativity, whining, complaining or insult throwing. Beyond that, I try to be a person that if I am speaking I am hoping it is to add to the equation and not subtract.
A couple of months of dealing with serious family health struggles left me physically and emotionally tired, dealing with my own feelings of shame for failing at making desired progress in my life, for not being able to do everything well, add in my own physical crisis and all the issues that can make one consider left me in a place that I’d been before, back in my shell. It’s dark and lonely there and deceptively “safe”. Continue reading “Turtle Like Tendencies”→
I am learning, definitely have not mastered, but am learning that to accomplish things in my life, to see change, to be a blessing to others, I must be intentional. Wishing, dreaming, praying about something is one thing and Lord knows, I have spent much time doing those things! Although, the wishing, dreaming and praying is all good, there comes a time in almost all circumstances where action is required on our end. That’s where things can get tricky!
I have been on a journey the past several months making many changes in my life and I can tell you it’s hard work!! You ever have the feeling that what you learn along the way may be more important than the actual destination? I have an inkling that just may be the case 🙂 There are some days, o.k., most days; where I feel overwhelmed by all that needs to be done, the miles still to go and I can spend way too much time attempting to figure out how it’s all gonna work out. Continue reading “Baby Steps”→
Well, if there’s one thing you can count on…Things are gonna change! Although there may be a few folks in this world that relish the thought of change, from my vantage point, most don’t.
It’s hard enough to change when it’s something we choose, when we’re the ones directing the momentum behind the change, but change when we had no say in the matter, when it’s not the choice we would’ve made and we feel like we’re forced to go along for the ride anyway…Watch Out! That’s when we really get worked up. Continue reading “Change is Gonna Come”→
Well, it may sound highly self absorbed of me and it probably is, but one of my life long lessons has been learning that this life is “not about me”. Boy, I’d like to say it’s been an easy lesson to learn, but I’d be lying, it’s tough and still can be on a frequent basis (confessions good for the soul, right?).
I can remember as a child when this painful truth just started to become apparent to me. My birthday is on the 4th of July and every year for MY birthday a big multi-million dollar production of fireworks was set off for my special day, I even saw fireworks on the television, everyone was into celebrating MY special day…imagine my 5 year old horror when I realized the fireworks weren’t necessarily for ME, they had something to do with Independence day and freedom or something like that?! Or imagine my shock, when I stay home from school because I’m sick and the school actually still opened without MY attendance! The painful lesson began… Continue reading “It’s Not About Me”→
I called my sis-n-love this week to hear about my 3 nephews 1st day of school! (I’ll leave names out to protect the “guilty”) She stated nephew #1 and #2 had a great day and then proceeded to explain to me the long and arduous details that started nephew #3’s 1st day. #3 decided he did not wish to attend school…Van is in the drop off line, slider door is open #1 & #2 jump on out, but #3, he’s not budging. Mom parks the van to assist #3 out of the vehicle which was met by great resistance. The details are now fuzzy, however, the ordeal involved, running, clinging, screaming, crying, school counselor, teacher and took the majority of the morning. I am told a little before lunch #3 made it to his 1st grade class to stay and had a marvelous remainder of the day. A matter of fact, #3 has told me “school is the awesomest”! Mom might still be recovering but #3 is no worse for the wear. Continue reading “Sometimes I’m A Stinker!”→