Facing the Fear Factor

So, if you’re not to afraid to admit it (pun intended).  Have you ever been scared?  I mean really scared.  The kind of fear that prohibits you from moving?  Maybe, so freaked out that you caused an all out scene?  A few weeks ago now, I was thinking about the subject of fear and the role it’s played in my life.  I then began to stroll down memory lane remembering times when I was nearly scared out of my mind!

Let me see…there was the time I was over at a friend’s house and the group left to run to the store but I stayed behind.  Next thing I know, all the lights in the house go off, and I hear a door open. I am sitting in a chair in the living room, remaining as still and quiet as possible in hopes that I will not be detected by whatever intruder has just entered the house; while praying that the pounding of my heart is not actually audible as it’s just about to beat out of my chest! Turns out my friends really hadn’t gone to far and had returned unbeknownst to me, to flip off the circuit breaker and have a laugh on me! Hilarious guys!! Continue reading “Facing the Fear Factor”

Baby Steps

Baby Steps

I am learning, definitely have not mastered, but am learning that to accomplish things in my life, to see change, to be a blessing to others, I must be intentional. Wishing, dreaming, praying about something is one thing and Lord knows, I have spent much time doing those things!  Although, the wishing, dreaming and praying is all good, there comes a time in almost all circumstances where action is required on our end.  That’s where things can get tricky!

I have been on a journey the past several months making many changes in my life and I can tell you it’s hard work!!  You ever have the feeling that what you learn along the way may be more important than the actual destination?  I have an inkling that just may be the case 🙂  There are some days, o.k., most days; where I feel overwhelmed by all that needs to be done, the miles still to go and I can spend way too much time attempting to figure out how it’s all gonna work out. Continue reading “Baby Steps”

Learning to Dream Again

What did you dream about when you were a child?  We all have dreams, something we spend time thinking about, hoping for, praying for, planning for (at least if you’re a planner like me).  I used to dream, hope, pray and plan a lot…but as the years rolled by, I started to dream a little less, felt like my odds were dwindling with each passing day.  Anyone can stay hopeful for a time, but when you feel like others have passed you by and your still sitting there hoping, dreaming, praying and planning, it starts to get a little discouraging.  So you talk to yourself, “hang in there”, “keep believing”, “keep doing what you know to do”…and all you hear are crickets. Continue reading “Learning to Dream Again”

Encourage Yourself!

I consider myself a fairly encouraging person. I can see the good in others and like to let them know.  I can also see what someone might be struggling with and I like to be able to speak to their potential and remind them that even though they may not be there (wherever “there” may be) that they will get there! I enjoy being a cheerleader, however, I’ve discovered I’m not so good at waving the pom poms in my own direction.  Do any of you suffer from this same oddity?  You “rah, rah, rah!” for others in your life and then “boo” the home team? Continue reading “Encourage Yourself!”

Life Is Hard

I am not sure when or where the false hood started for me? Somewhere along the line, I bought into the idea that life is about being happy. You grow up and achieve, what you want to achieve, whatever that may be for you…Get married, buy a house, have a family, work hard, play hard, love your family, surround yourself with great friends, be good to others and Walaa, happy life! …Then reality hits! Continue reading “Life Is Hard”

Stay In Your Own Lane

Stay In Your Own Lane and I’m not talking about driving skills here, although the sentiment obviously applies there as well.  As I was driving today (in my own lane, I’ll have you know :-))  I was reminding myself that I need to do a better job of staying in my own lane in life.

I can have a tendency to drift into another person’s lane and I do it by comparing my life with someone else’s.  What a mistake that is!!  Do you ever fall into this same trap? Continue reading “Stay In Your Own Lane”

I Am Reminded

I have been a Whitney Houston fan for many years. I remember in Jr. High, participating in my school’s lyp sync contest & Whitney’s “How Will I Know” was my groups song choice, it beat the boy’s group hands down, their choice, Duran Duran, “Hungry Like a Wolf” 🙂 So much talent, that the nick name given to her was aptly, “The Voice”.  I will never forget her performance of the Star Spangled Banner at the Super Bowl and on and on I could go about the Whitney songs I love and the amazing vocal gift that was the background for many of my life’s memories. Continue reading “I Am Reminded”

I’m Rich!!

I guess you would have to buy a lotto ticket to win millions. I’ve never bought one, but I’ve had some fun thinking about what I would do with my winnings! It’s amazing how we can always come up with something that we “need” 🙂

Truth be told as a middle class American I am richer than 99% of the planet’s population and yet at times, I am not content with what I have, I am thinking of the new furniture I’d like to have or that handbag that is calling my name.  It is so easy for me to get consumed with “stuff” and it’s so stupid, cause you and I both know, “stuff” doesn’t matter, it doesn’t last, it doesn’t even bring true happiness, in most cases “stuff” just leaves you wanting some more “stuff”! Continue reading “I’m Rich!!”

I’m Not Good Enough

I’m not good enough, probably not a popular statement, in a day and age, where it is widely touted that “the power is within you”, “all you have to do is believe”.  It’s also probably not how I would recommend starting off a self-esteem conversation with a friend that needs an encouraging word.  But, what I’m talking about isn’t a put down or a berating of yourself, it’s a reality check.

Confession time again…I have spent much of my life attempting to be good enough.  I have worked long and hard and given it my best.  I have attempted to prove my worthiness to those that love me and sometimes even to those that don’t appear to care for me all too much.  Oh, the energy I have expended trying to create an impressive record for myself. Continue reading “I’m Not Good Enough”

Learning To Count

I remember my dad saying to me multiple times growing up, “no child of mine is going to be an ingrate”! Is that even a word? Either way, I knew exactly what he meant and I knew that he also meant my attitude needed some adjusting and a little thanks and gratitude were in order. I would love to say that I now have this lesson down pat, but I regret to say, I still suffer from a less than pleasing attitude from time to time. Continue reading “Learning To Count”