I’d much rather write a blog post titled, “the blessing of success”, “the blessing of victory”, “the blessing of discovered dreams”, those all sound pretty sweet! “The Blessing of Heartache” doesn’t really thrill me, but I am learning that there is truth in it.
The situation itself doesn’t matter because hurt is hurt, right? I don’t know about you but I don’t like feeling hurt, I just want it to go away. I will attempt to ignore it, numb it, block it out, whatever it takes, to just not feel it! Continue reading “The Blessing of Heartache”
Dreams can be funny things and by funny, I guess I mean not so funny. Last night I dreamed about someone, someone I used to know. I wasn’t thinking of this person as I drifted off to la la land and I don’t spend a great deal of time and energy thinking about this individual on a regular basis, but for whatever reason they made what felt like a very real appearance in my dreams last night. Continue reading “Waking Up From A Dream”
I can hear Tina Turner in my head now, “What’s love got to do, got to do with it, what’s love but a second-hand emotion, what’s love got to do, got to do with it, who needs a heart when a heart can be broken?” Good question and she’s got a point!
I have thought often over the years that people are the best and worst part of life! I know that may sound harsh, but let me explain. Family and friendship can be so beautiful and sweet. It is truly one of life’s greatest gifts to have someone who knows you in all your imperfectness and loves you still. There is also the fact that if we love, we will get hurt and that part isn’t my favorite! Relationships of all kinds at their best take time, work, attention, compromise and you will walk through times that are just plain hard. I have just recently walked through this where I felt like I had poured into someone, let them in, only to have them betray me. It was shocking, it was unexpected, it hurt deeply, it still stings and my immediate reaction is to want to shut down, put walls around my heart and not let anyone else in. Continue reading “What’s Love Got To Do With It?”
I was driving out-of-town this past week a couple of hours from home and pulled up to a stop light when I saw a sign posted that read, “You Are Valued”. How awesome is that?! Cause sometimes we need a reminder, don’t we? I know I’ve been needing a little reminding lately and I was immediately thankful for whoever pounded that sign in the ground to remind me in the midst of a cold, foggy, quiet commute.
I want to remind you today. In case you are doubting it or maybe it’s been a while since you’ve heard it and even longer since you’ve felt it. YOU are valued! Continue reading “YOU Are Valued”
On what should have been an hour and a half drive on a weekday afternoon, there was an accident on I-5 that made drive time turn into a 5 hour forced bonding time between myself and a work peer. To pass the time while sitting there, we talked and after a couple of hours, started trying to entertain one another by playing various games we recalled from childhood family road trips. My co-worker decided to play a game of “What’s your favorite?”, which led to her knowing much more about me than I would normally divulge to a colleague. What’s your favorite color? What’s your favorite movie? What’s your favorite food? What’s your favorite song? I can’t answer that one! I mean, there are so many, and it depends on what type of music, what mood I’m in, what memory its associated with, how do you pick one child over the other?! The question actually stressed me out! Continue reading “All I Ever Have To Be”
As I sit down to write this post, I am struck with the fact that you won’t be reading or commenting on this one. I could always count on you to take a couple of minutes to read whatever I was sharing, you only gave a compliment when you meant it, so when I got one, it meant a lot because I knew it was completely sincere. This is just one of the many things I loved and appreciated about you and there is so much more.
You had strong opinions, not a whole lot of gray area with you. Spunk and internal fortitude were very natural for you and you had a deep sense of right and wrong. Continue reading “Fiery & Faithful”
I like the word joy. It brings a smile to my face just saying it…go ahead and try …”JOY”…aahhh, sweetness. Wouldn’t you know it though, obedience doesn’t roll off the tongue quite so smoothly. I don’t feel like partying when I hear that one! Who wants more joy in their life? We all raise our hands. Who’s interested in becoming more obedient? Cue the crickets.
When I say obedience, it conjures up the same feelings I tend to get when I hear words like, selflessness, humility, sacrifice or surrender. No smile appears on my face, rather I often feel a sense of dread, like I need to brace myself, or even fear, wondering what’s this going to cost me? My self centeredness is showing again. Anyone out there know what I’m saying? Continue reading “The Joy of Obedience”